Category Archives: Hope

It Takes an Act of Faith


There have been times in my life when I have felt encompassed in darkness.  I have also reached the point where I have wanted and even tried to end my life… but somehow, I am still here.  I am still needed, as are you.  You are needed.  The Lord needs YOU on HIS side.



Because He Lives!!!


Once upon a time there was a girl or you could say a young woman, or perhaps even a woman named Amy…oh, wait that’s me. Yes this is a true experience about me.

I met an amazing man and we began dating in a way… He lived in France and I live in the United States. We would Skype or make video calls to each other whenever we could and we would send long emails every day. It was wonderful. I began to really love him, or at least I considered it love. He was so very nice and caring. I told him about my struggles with depression and how my arms were full of scars, and he looked past those struggles I had and looked forward with hope for the future.

We began talking more about actually meeting each other. We expressed our feelings for each other and loved talking of our possible future together.

At this point, I wanted to be completely honest, not that I wasn’t before…I just wanted to share everything about myself with him. So, I told him about an addiction that I struggled with and how deeply I feared rejection from others.

When I told him of this addiction, he said he would like to help but followed it up with if I knew anyone other woman where I lived that would like him…basically asking me to set him up with one of my friends.

I responded by saying that I was sorry he felt that way and apologized for my shortcomings, but that I would not just pass him on to another one of my friends here in the U.S. He was simply just not the man for me.

I was heartbroken and depression seemed to start seeping in again. I reverted back to my addiction, which I had been clean of for close to eight weeks. This ended up making me feel even worse. After a few weeks, I even went to send him another email telling him how much I missed him, but after reading his final email to me, decided against it. I really hope that he is doing well.


Over time, a couple of months, I learned to lean more heavily on my Savior for help and support. I have been learning to be more humble and pure. I have been attending addiction recovery meetings to help with my addiction.

Basically I have learned that ALL is possible through the Savior. I have been trying to trust in Him and His plan for me more and more…which is definitely not always easy.

I know that my Savior lives and that because He lives I can live again, I can live now. Because He lives, I can truly be happy even amidst hard and challenging times in my life. Oh how I do miss the love that comes from being in a relationship with someone you believe truly cares about you, who you believe you could spend forever with.

But I know that the Lord has felt those same feelings that I have felt and that because He lives I can have hope in my life for a better future, for a clean life from addiction, for the strength to keep going in hard times, for so, so much more.

I hope you enjoy the song/video by Sally Deford. It is one of my favorites. What can you do or believe or feel in your life because the Savior lives?

Good Enough

With Christ, we are good enough as long as we are striving to do what is right and true.  With Christ, we know enough and we are made perfect in Christ.  He loves you.  Lean on him in your hard times and trials.  He will be there for you.


Kindness will get you far in life.

Oh Come, Emmanuel

I hope this video touches you as it touched me.  God is real and He is there for you.  Christ lives!  What a wonderful message.

Satan’s Lies


Punishing Ourselves

I think many of us, myself included, in our lives like to or tend to punish ourselves.   We make a mistake and then we feel we must be punished for it, that we must punish ourselves for that mistake.

Recently, I have done this as I had made a mistake in my life (returning to old habits), so I proceeded to punish myself.  I did this even knowing that it would be what Satan would want me to do.  I couldn’t allow myself to be wrapped up in the arms and the love of the Savior.

The Savior’s atonement covers this for us.  We do not need to beat ourselves up for doing something wrong, we just need to turn to the Savior.  He will lift our burdens.  He will make what was wrong right.  He is the Savior of the world.  He is the Savior of you.

Since I have beat myself up for making a mistake, I have turned to the Savior to repent of my original mistake and for beating myself up afterwards.  His love feels so good.  It is like a warmth and peace that overcomes you.  You can have this in your life as well.  He loves you.  Stop beating yourself up, and turn to Him.

Remember, God always allows U-turns.

Over and Over again


Sometimes with life happening, I wonder if trials will ever stop.  If hard times will ever be done being hard.  If life will be good again.  Perhaps you have wondered these things as well… If…. What if this or what if that?

Recently, I got out of the hospital after being an inpatient for one and a half months for severe major depression.  Life is not easy to get through when all you really care about is sleeping or when all you really want to do is die.  But our Heavenly Father does love us.  God is there for us.  He is there to help us through our hardest moments in life.  He is there.


Now to talk about the word if…

I have allowed this word to overtake me in my life sometimes… what if I wasn’t supposed to do what I just did?  If only I would have done this… If only I could be better…Satan is the author of the word if.  He uses it to plant seeds of doubt in each of our minds.  In fact He even used that word numerous times while tempting the Savior while the Savior was fasting for forty days and nights.  This is how the passage goes in the New Testament in Matthew chapter 4:

1 Then was Jesus aled up of the Spirit into the wilderness bto bectempted of the devil.

2 And when he had afastedbforty days and forty nights, che was afterward an hungred.

3 And when the atempter came to him, he said, If thou be the Son of God, command that these stones be made bbread.

4 But he answered and said, It is written, aMan shall not blive bycbread alone, but by every dword that proceedeth out of theemouth of God.

aThen the devil taketh him up into the bholy city, and setteth him on a pinnacle of the temple,

aAnd saith unto him, bIf thou be the Son of God, cast thyself down: for it is written, He shall give his angels charge concerning thee: and in their hands they shall bear thee up, lest at any time thou dash thy foot against a stone.

7 Jesus said unto him, It is written again, Thou shalt not atemptthe Lord thy God.

aAgain, the devil taketh him up into an exceeding high mountain, and sheweth him all the bkingdoms of the world, and the glory of them;

aAnd saith unto him, All these things will I give thee, if thou wilt fall down and worship me.

10 Then saith Jesus unto him, Get thee hence, aSatan: for it is written, Thou shalt bworship the Lord thy God, and him only shalt thou serve.”

Satan ultimately has no power over us.  We have more power than He does or ever will.  We can cast Him away with the power of light that is inside each of us.  That power of light comes from Christ.  Christ is the one who we can look to when we are struggling.  He is the one who can really help us, even when it seems like nobody can.

What is causing you heartache in your life right now?  What is causing you pain?  Do you believe Christ can heal you?  That He can lift you higher?  Do you feel His light inside you?