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It Takes an Act of Faith


There have been times in my life when I have felt encompassed in darkness.  I have also reached the point where I have wanted and even tried to end my life… but somehow, I am still here.  I am still needed, as are you.  You are needed.  The Lord needs YOU on HIS side.



Good Enough

With Christ, we are good enough as long as we are striving to do what is right and true.  With Christ, we know enough and we are made perfect in Christ.  He loves you.  Lean on him in your hard times and trials.  He will be there for you.

You are not alone

“It is your reaction to adversity, not the adversity itself that will determine your life story”



"Pray Fervently.  With God all things are possible."

“Pray Fervently. With God all things are possible.”

Do you ever feel alone?  Left out? or discouraged?  Do you feel like people just don’t care to listen to what you have to say?  The Lord is there.  and He listens.  He always does.  I have felt Him listening to me in my deepest sorrows and deepest trials.  He is there.  He does care.

You Matter to Him

"You are no ordinary beings. You are glorious and eternal"

There was a time not to long ago when I felt absolutely worthless.  I constantly thought of how I could end my life and just cease to exist.  It didn’t seem worth it anymore.  I wanted to be done.  I was not important, so what did it matter?

In fact, this is something that I began writing when I was having all of these feelings…. I never finished it, but this is what it said and how I really felt:

“I hate my life so much.  I want to die right now. But nobody will let me. And I don’t understand why.  My life is pointless.  I hurt everyone.  I’m a stress to everyone.  I’m a burden to everyone and things would be better for people if I was not alive.  Really they would. So maybe all I …”

I wanted to be done.  Perhaps at times in your life you have felt small and insignificant.  It is at these times that the words of prophets and apostles help me to know and feel of my divine worth.

The Words of Dieter F. Uchtdorf

These are words that Dieter F. Uchtdorf said two weeks ago:

“My dear brothers and sisters, it may be true that man is nothing in comparison to the greatness of the universe. At times we may even feel insignificant, invisible, alone, or forgotten. But always remember—you matter to Him! If you ever doubt that, consider these four divine principles:

First, God loves the humble and meek, for they are “greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”17

Second, the Lord entrusts “the fulness of [His] gospel [to] be proclaimed by the weak and the simple unto the ends of the world.”18 He has chosen “the weak things of the world [to] come forth and break down the mighty and strong ones”19 and to put to shame “the things which are mighty.”20

Third, no matter where you live, no matter how humble your circumstances, how meager your employment, how limited your abilities, how ordinary your appearance, or how little your calling in the Church may appear to you, you are not invisible to your Heavenly Father. He loves you. He knows your humble heart and your acts of love and kindness. Together, they form a lasting testimony of your fidelity and faith.

Fourth and finally, please understand that what you see and experience now is not what forever will be. You will not feel loneliness, sorrow, pain, or discouragement forever. We have the faithful promise of God that He will neither forget nor forsake those who incline their hearts to Him.21 Have hope and faith in that promise. Learn to love your Heavenly Father and become His disciple in word and in deed.

Be assured that if you but hold on, believe in Him, and remain faithful in keeping the commandments, one day you will experience for yourselves the promises revealed to the Apostle Paul: “Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.”22

Brothers and sisters, the most powerful Being in the universe is the Father of your spirit. He knows you. He loves you with a perfect love.

God sees you not only as a mortal being on a small planet who lives for a brief season—He sees you as His child. He sees you as the being you are capable and designed to become. He wants you to know that you matter to Him.

May we ever believe, trust, and align our lives so that we will understand our true eternal worth and potential. May we be worthy of the precious blessings our Heavenly Father has in store for us is my prayer in the name of His Son, even Jesus Christ, amen.”

The Power of Faith

Do you open your heart to let Christ in and to let faith grow?

Faith has brought me far…

Faith in the Lord, Jesus Christ has brought me far in my life.  There have been times in my life, not too long ago, where I have been discouraged and burdened with uncertainty and sorrow.  I felt down-trodden, alone, and full of misery.  Each day, if I could, I would drag myself out of bed, not usually having much motivation to do so.  I would drop to my knees and pray.  “Heavenly Father, are you there?  I need your help today.  I am so sad and I just don’t seem to care anymore.  Please help me.”

My days continued to drag on.  I pulled myself from my bed to the couch.  Often, I would just sit and cry.  Friends would come and I would push them away.  I couldn’t do it.  I couldn’t act like I was happy all of the time.  Through it all though, I continued to read my scriptures and turn to my Father in Heaven, even if I did not really feel up to doing it.  This was the little light that was still in my life.  This little light is what kept me alive and kept me, somehow, going on.

Faith is powerful

Faith is powerful.  Each of us can increase our faith each day.  Through faith, miracles are wrought.  We are healed through our faith.  President Gordon B. Hinckley once said:

“Faith in something greater than ourselves enables us to do what we have said we’ll do, to press forward when we are tired or hurt or afraid, to keep going when the challenge seems overwhelming and the course is entirely uncertain.”

The Lord does not and will not lead us astray.  He will teach us to walk in the light.  He gives us loving guidance to show us the way.  Let us ever continue to have faith in Him as He says in Doctrine and Covenants 6:36:

“Look unto me in every thought; doubt not, fear not.”

He is there.  He does not abandon us.  We are not alone.  He is there.  Let us open the door and let Him in.

Open the door

Let us open the door that Christ knocks at and let him in.  I love how Spencer W. Kimball describes this in his book The Miracle of Forgiveness.  He says on page 212:

“The third chapter of the Book of Revelation contains these words of the Savior: ‘Behold, I stand at the door, and knock:  if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me. (Rev. 3:20)’

Holman Hunt, the artist, felt inspired to capture this stirring scripture on canvas.  One day he was showing his picture of ‘Christ Knocking at the Door’ to a friend when the friend suddenly exclaimed:  ‘There is one thing wrong about your picture.’

‘What is it?’ inquired the artist.

‘The door on which Jesus knocks has no handle,’ replied his friend.

‘Ah,’ responded Mr. Hunt, ‘that is not a mistake.  You see, this is the door to the human heart.  It can only be opened from the inside.’

And thus it is.  Jesus may stand and knock, but each of us decides whether to open.  The Spirit is powerless to compel a man to move.  The man himself must take the initiative.”

Let us take the initiative in our lives and open the door to let Jesus in by taking the tiny steps of faith.  Let us remember to pray, to act kindly, to study His word, to keep the commandments, to worship Him, and to remember Him always.  I know that as we do this, we are able to get through the hardest times in our lives.  He is there and He is waiting to bless us.

You’re Not Alone

How deep do you let yourself get in dark waters?


A couple nights ago I had a dream that I fell into dark and murky water from a dock.  I soon found myself reaching up to grab somebody’s hand that was stretched out towards me.  As I continued to reach, I was drifting away from the hand.  Then, all of a sudden, I felt this huge pull on my leg that was pulling me downward.  I continued reaching, but it seemed like I was not getting very far.  The strong yank downward happened again and I was scared.  Immediately, I woke up.

Life and Trials

Perhaps, in life this is how it is.  We are continually reaching upward, but if we let ourselves drift even a little bit, Satan is right there to pull us even farther downward.  He wants our souls.  Are we letting him have them?

As we give in a little bit, we allow ourselves to be pulled down more than we thought would happen.  As we reach up and call for help from our Heavenly Father, He will be there to save us with His Son, Jesus Christ, our Savior.

I was not left alone in the water to save myself from the deep and dark unknown abyss below me.  The hand is always stretched out to lift us up to more than we can be.

The Waters of Life

Sometimes it seems as if life is like being in the dark, unknown water.  Sometimes it seems as if we are surrounded by things that we did not ask to be surrounded by.  Sometimes it seems as if our choices lead us further and further away from the outstretched hand, because it is easier to let ourselves drift than to keep ourselves afloat and continually reaching unto God.

As I went through depression, I allowed myself to drift, but I believe that I always had my hand reaching out to Christ.  I wanted help.  I did not know what to do anymore.  I felt lost.  Nothing seemed to be working.  The only comfort that I had was from my Heavenly Father and Savior.  Sometimes it was from them through another person.

I was being pulled downward into the dark, unknown abyss of water beneath me.  I am not going to lie, I was scared.  I did not know what was happening to me and all I could do many days was put all of my effort and thought and strength into getting myself out of bed.

Needing More…

Sometimes, when we have drifted far away from the outstretched hand, we need more than that hand to save us from the ominous deep below us.  This was the case with me.  I did not have the strength to swim myself closer to the hand against the strong force pulling me away.

When this is the case, the Lord provides a way for us to  be saved.  He has given humans the ability to have intelligence and to learn and to create.  He has shown people how things can be done.  He reaches out to us with more than just His hand.  He reaches out with His love and His knowledge through others.

For me, this meant being hospitalized numerous times.  He did not leave me alone to drown.  He provided a way for me to be saved and be lifted out of the dark water.  As my therapists and psychiatrists tried to help me in the best way they thought possible, I was being brought back towards the dock and closer to the outstretched hand.  I was thrown a rope and I am so grateful that I grabbed on.

When we are given the opportunity to have help, let us take it.  Heavenly Father knows what we need perfectly, and sometimes what we need is additional help.  It is not always easy to accept, but I was saved as I did grab hold of the gift that God was giving me.

We can be lifted out of dark and troubled waters.  Heavenly Father provides a way.  Through the Savior, all things are possible.