Is your heart open to feel God's love?
I have felt that my heart has been closing up to those around me ever since I started the downward spiral towards being diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. I feel often now that my heart has closed up so much that it has become very difficult for me to open it up to others, even as I have been recovering well from my diagnosis of almost a year ago now.
While I am one to trust easily, I just cannot seem to get myself to open my heart fully to others or to God’s love. I have a strong desire to be able to, but fear or something keeps pulling me back. It seems like that I cannot allow myself to truly ‘feel’ again. I mean, I can have feelings that only go so deep, but as soon as they get closer to my heart and deeper in my soul, I turn away.
Perhaps, my mind is telling me that if I allow myself to feel again, I am inviting depression into my life once more. This is something that I have been struggling with and praying for help for quite some time. I ask to know how I can open my heart more to be filled with charity and love. I seek for answers and strive to follow the inspiration I receive.
I read daily in the scriptures about those who have hardened their hearts to the word of God and have become callous in learning. Each day I recognize how I do not want that to be me, how I want to stay far away from becoming someone with a hard heart.
When we harden our hearts or begin to close them up and allow them to solidify, we lock ourselves away from the inspiration of the Spirit of the Lord. We corner ourselves to very limited understanding. Often, we isolate ourselves from truly feeling the Lord’s great love for us.
How we keep our Hearts soft and open
So, how do we keep our hearts soft and open to the Love of our Heavenly Father? What I have found in my studying and pondering this subject is that by being obedient and by living righteous lives we allow the Lord to work within us mighty changes. As we continue in obedience and ask in faith, we can truly have a mighty change of heart.
In my life, the thing that has been helping me the most is building on my faith. As I have faith in Christ, I am able to open up my heart and know that He will be there to help me no matter what happens. Even if I end up spiraling back downward, He will help me to know that I am a beautiful daughter of God, who loves me and I love Him. He will help me to remember to stand as a witness of Him at all times, in all things, and in all places.
As I open my heart and my soul to the influence of the Holy Spirit, I will be able to understand God’s truths and all that He has in store for me. I know that as you do this, you also will be able to lay hold upon the great blessings God has for you. He is available to each and every one of us.