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Because He Lives!!!


Once upon a time there was a girl or you could say a young woman, or perhaps even a woman named Amy…oh, wait that’s me. Yes this is a true experience about me.

I met an amazing man and we began dating in a way… He lived in France and I live in the United States. We would Skype or make video calls to each other whenever we could and we would send long emails every day. It was wonderful. I began to really love him, or at least I considered it love. He was so very nice and caring. I told him about my struggles with depression and how my arms were full of scars, and he looked past those struggles I had and looked forward with hope for the future.

We began talking more about actually meeting each other. We expressed our feelings for each other and loved talking of our possible future together.

At this point, I wanted to be completely honest, not that I wasn’t before…I just wanted to share everything about myself with him. So, I told him about an addiction that I struggled with and how deeply I feared rejection from others.

When I told him of this addiction, he said he would like to help but followed it up with if I knew anyone other woman where I lived that would like him…basically asking me to set him up with one of my friends.

I responded by saying that I was sorry he felt that way and apologized for my shortcomings, but that I would not just pass him on to another one of my friends here in the U.S. He was simply just not the man for me.

I was heartbroken and depression seemed to start seeping in again. I reverted back to my addiction, which I had been clean of for close to eight weeks. This ended up making me feel even worse. After a few weeks, I even went to send him another email telling him how much I missed him, but after reading his final email to me, decided against it. I really hope that he is doing well.


Over time, a couple of months, I learned to lean more heavily on my Savior for help and support. I have been learning to be more humble and pure. I have been attending addiction recovery meetings to help with my addiction.

Basically I have learned that ALL is possible through the Savior. I have been trying to trust in Him and His plan for me more and more…which is definitely not always easy.

I know that my Savior lives and that because He lives I can live again, I can live now. Because He lives, I can truly be happy even amidst hard and challenging times in my life. Oh how I do miss the love that comes from being in a relationship with someone you believe truly cares about you, who you believe you could spend forever with.

But I know that the Lord has felt those same feelings that I have felt and that because He lives I can have hope in my life for a better future, for a clean life from addiction, for the strength to keep going in hard times, for so, so much more.

I hope you enjoy the song/video by Sally Deford. It is one of my favorites. What can you do or believe or feel in your life because the Savior lives?


Past Loneliness…

You are not alone...

Feeling Alone

Have you ever been in a room full of people and felt completely and utterly alone?  Even when you knew people who were in that group of people?  I know that I have.  Sometimes in life you just feel like no one can relate to you, that no one understands.  People may talk like they understand, but sometimes you just want to scream at them YOU HAVE NO CLUE what I am going through right now.

Sometimes in life we feel like no one understands, that we are going through our trials by ourselves and that no one cares.  Sometimes we simply feel worthless and feel like there is no reason that anyone should care for us.  Sometimes we wonder why people do care, because we honestly don’t even care.

Past the Loneliness…

So, how do we get past the loneliness?  How do we accept the love and concern and care that others offer to us?  How do we start caring again?

  • Through Christ:  It is ultimately through the atonement of Christ that we are not alone, that we can get past our loneliness.  He is the One who has gone through every thing that we have gone through and everything that we will go through in fulfilling the Father’s will by atoning for each of our sins and by suffering in the Garden of Gethsemane.  Isaiah 53: 4-5 explains this beautifully as it reads:
“Surely He hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows:  yet we did esteem Him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.  But He was wounded (pierced) for our transgressions, He was bruised (crushed) for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon Him; and with His stripes we are healed.”

  • Accepting our Identity:  As we truly come to know and accept who we are we can have a greater capacity to rely upon our Savior and our Father in Heaven.  We can do this as we accept ourselves as children of God, whom He loves and wants to bless and care for.  We are His children, and He is our Father.  His purpose is to help us.  He ultimately helps us through His Son, Jesus Christ.  This scripture in Doctrine and Covenants 76: 22-24 sums up our identity well:  
“And now, after the many testimonies which have been given of him, this is the testimony, last of all, which we give of Him:  That He lives!  For we saw Him, even on the right hand of God and we heard the voice bearing record that He is the Only Begotten of the Father-  That by Him and through Him and of Him, the worlds are and were created, and the inhabitants thereof are begotten sons and daughters unto God.”
  • Reaching Out:  As we reach out to those around us, we think less of ourselves and thus feel less lonely.  I am not saying that it is not important to care for ourselves, because that is vital, but as we reach out to others in service and kindness, we feel better about ourselves.  We feel this way because we are doing what Christ would do and what our Heavenly Father would want us to do in helping His children.
  • Living to have the Spirit of Christ:  As we live our lives in order to be able to feel God’s love for us through His spirit, we are able to feel comforted.  When we live in such a way that is in accordance to the Lord’s will for us and His commandments, we are better able to recognize His hand in our lives and feel of His love daily.

You are Never Alone

How have you seen the Lord’s hand in your life?  How can you know that you are never alone?   Where do you turn for comfort?  God never fails us.  He is there and He loves us.  Jesus Christ is truly my best friend.  I want to live my life in such a way that I show gratitude for that friendship and am a friend in return by following His example.  Christ is the reason why we are never alone.  Through His suffering on the cross and in the Garden of Gethsemane, He has experienced all that we have experienced and He is willing to go through it again as He walks with us in our lives.  Let us let Him heal us.  He lifts us up.  I am reminded of the footprints poem.  I know that He lives and that He is there to carry us through our hard times.