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It Takes an Act of Faith


There have been times in my life when I have felt encompassed in darkness.  I have also reached the point where I have wanted and even tried to end my life… but somehow, I am still here.  I am still needed, as are you.  You are needed.  The Lord needs YOU on HIS side.




Is this ever how you feel?

Is this ever how you feel?

If you have enough faith, then you can handle difficulties.

The Savior’s Arms

I loved this by Brent L Top:

“Alma reminded his people that Christ “sendeth an invitation unto all men, for the arms of mercy are extended towards them” (Alma 5:33; emphasis added). Think of what that invitation really means. Think of what His arms of mercy can do for you. When you are embraced in His arms of mercy, you will come to know the peace and joy of being clean—forgiven of your sins through His atoning mercy. You will see the world and all eternity with new eyes through the companionship of the Holy Ghost. You will feel more profoundly and love more deeply because He will, as the prophet Ezekiel declared, “take away the stony heart out of your flesh” and give you “a new heart” and “a new spirit” that will “cause you to walk in [His] statutes … and do them” (Ezekiel 36:26–27).

I had an experience that helped me glimpse what it means to be embraced in the arms of His mercy. I was so moved and motivated by my experience with President Uchtdorf that I determined to follow his example with my missionaries. We took every group of departing missionaries, on their last day in the mission, to the Nauvoo Illinois Temple for an endowment session. I greeted the missionaries as they entered the celestial room with a big hug and the words “I love you.” I expressed my deep appreciation for their service and that they were now able to return home with honor. I meant every word of it, but I must admit that it was easier to express those sentiments to some missionaries than to others.

One elder in particular had given me more than his share of grief. On more than one occasion, I told him I was going to send him home. He would always promise me that he would try harder, which he did for a while. But then the cycle would start over again—disobedience, admonishment, repentance, renewed determination, and then slacking off. I badly wanted him to complete his mission honorably, which he finally did.

As he entered the celestial room, I greeted him with the customary hug and the almost obligatory “I love you.” Tears streamed down his face. His whole body shook with weeping. When he could speak, he whispered to me over and over again, “Thank you for extending me mercy.” It was a tender moment and I too shed many tears. My love for him at that moment was unbounded.

Then it happened. I understood. Almost as if the veil had parted, I sensed a coming day when I would embrace the Savior, and with tears of gratitudeand love I would likewise declare, “Thank you for extending me mercy.”

How grateful I am for the Lord’s arms of mercy. I am grateful that He has rescued me, not only from physical death and sin but also from myself—my fears, my discouragement, my doubts, and my feelings of inadequacy. Truly, His arms of mercy are arms of safety and security. Mormon reminds us that had his people repented and faithfully followed the Savior, “they might have been clasped in the arms of Jesus” (Mormon 5:11).

Despite our accomplishments, talents, and desires for righteousness, we are weak—spiritually without arms. At times we feel what Ammon declared: “Yea, I know that I am nothing; as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God” (Alma 26:12). Ammon knew whose arms gave him the strength to perform mighty miracles and proclaim the gospel. To paraphrase his words, “Clasped in the arms of Jesus, I can do all things” (see Alma 26:12).

May we exercise greater faith in the arms of the Lord—His arms of power, His arms of love, and His arms of mercy. May we allow Him to cradle and carry and comfort us in those arms. In turn, our arms—our determination and our devotion—will be strengthened. I bear testimony of the living reality of Jesus Christ and the truthfulness of His gospel. I have witnessed the enabling power of the Lord’s grace that empowers us to do and to be better. I have experienced that power. I have felt His arms around me. May we all be “clasped in the arms of Jesus.”

What is Moral?

We have been told what is moral and what is not.  Listen to these words of the prophet if you doubt:

Whose side are you on?  The Lord’s or Satan’s?

Live like you Believe

As I was studying this morning, I was reminded of this song.  It is so true that we should each live like we believe and live like we know…

Being Blessed with More

What direction are you taking in your life?

When we follow what the Lord or His Spirit prompts us to do, we are blessed by receiving more direction and guidance in our lives.  This same concept applies to following His commandments.  When we do follow His commandments, He blesses us by providing us with more commandments that help us to come closer to Him and become more like Him.

The Lord gives us line upon line, here a little and there a little.  He does not expect us to swallow a whole turkey or meal at once.  He prepares us for the things that we face in life as it says in Ether 2:25:

“And behold, I prepare you against these things.”

I have seen how the Lord has blessed and prompted me in my life through thinking back on how I was able to live while recovering from depression, suicidal actions and ideations, and self-harming behaviors.

One step at a time

At first, I never thought that I would ever wear short sleeves again because I have scars up and down my arms that are not little scars.  These came from cutting myself, a lot.  I also have marks on my arms where my skin is discolored because I would scratch my arms so much, when I didn’t have things to cut with, that now there is discoloration.  Basically, I never thought that it would be possible for me to feel like I could live in society with them knowing about what I have done with myself and my life.  I was not and am not proud of the fact that I desecrated my body in such a way.

But the Lord is kind and good.  He reminded me in various ways how important it is to be honest with yourself and others.  He reminded me through scripture that the Savior did not hide His scars from the people.  He showed the people and allowed the people to feel His scars and come to a knowledge of who He is.  The Lord prompted me to begin wearing short sleeves and to not be ashamed of what I went through or who I am at this point.

I must admit that it was not at all easy, especially at the beginning.  It was hard for me to see my scars every day throughout the day.  But the Lord helped me through.  He helped me to ignore or not be offended by the stares people gave me or the glances at my arms when talking with people.  No matter how we  look on the outside, I was reminded over and over again that we are each a spirit son or daughter of our Heavenly Father, and He loves us.

After wearing short sleeves again for a little while, I was prompted again by the Lord that I could be doing more to help others.  I was prompted to begin this blog.  I had no idea how to blog.  I had never done it before and it was like a foreign language to me.  So, I began researching about blogging, how it is done, etc.  I received strong promptings from the Holy Ghost that I needed to start this blog now.  (This was in June of 2011).  So, I found wordpress to be a great site to blog with and started my blog about my new life of hope.

Not to long ago now, after following these previous promptings, I received another prompting telling me that I could be doing more to help directly with people who may be struggling.  I asked around the community about where I could volunteer in mental health related areas.  I was directed to Madison Cares, which is a system of care for mental health in the Madison County and school district.

While searching for different places to volunteer, I was researching what I could do at the university I am attending.  I learned about the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) and started looking into starting a chapter at my school.   Just this past week, we received confirmation that we can start meeting as a group about mental wellness.

The Lord truly does bless us.  He is in the details of our lives and He guides us.  The Lord does not leave us alone.  President Thomas S. Monson once said:

“We are never alone when we stand with our Father in Heaven.”

I needed this today

I needed to hear this today and I thought that I would share it with you.  I hope you appreciate it as much as I did….

Our greatest weaknesses truly can turn into our strengths with the Lord’s help.  I love Him.