What direction are you taking in your life?
When we follow what the Lord or His Spirit prompts us to do, we are blessed by receiving more direction and guidance in our lives. This same concept applies to following His commandments. When we do follow His commandments, He blesses us by providing us with more commandments that help us to come closer to Him and become more like Him.
The Lord gives us line upon line, here a little and there a little. He does not expect us to swallow a whole turkey or meal at once. He prepares us for the things that we face in life as it says in Ether 2:25:
“And behold, I prepare you against these things.”
I have seen how the Lord has blessed and prompted me in my life through thinking back on how I was able to live while recovering from depression, suicidal actions and ideations, and self-harming behaviors.
One step at a time
At first, I never thought that I would ever wear short sleeves again because I have scars up and down my arms that are not little scars. These came from cutting myself, a lot. I also have marks on my arms where my skin is discolored because I would scratch my arms so much, when I didn’t have things to cut with, that now there is discoloration. Basically, I never thought that it would be possible for me to feel like I could live in society with them knowing about what I have done with myself and my life. I was not and am not proud of the fact that I desecrated my body in such a way.
But the Lord is kind and good. He reminded me in various ways how important it is to be honest with yourself and others. He reminded me through scripture that the Savior did not hide His scars from the people. He showed the people and allowed the people to feel His scars and come to a knowledge of who He is. The Lord prompted me to begin wearing short sleeves and to not be ashamed of what I went through or who I am at this point.
I must admit that it was not at all easy, especially at the beginning. It was hard for me to see my scars every day throughout the day. But the Lord helped me through. He helped me to ignore or not be offended by the stares people gave me or the glances at my arms when talking with people. No matter how we look on the outside, I was reminded over and over again that we are each a spirit son or daughter of our Heavenly Father, and He loves us.
After wearing short sleeves again for a little while, I was prompted again by the Lord that I could be doing more to help others. I was prompted to begin this blog. I had no idea how to blog. I had never done it before and it was like a foreign language to me. So, I began researching about blogging, how it is done, etc. I received strong promptings from the Holy Ghost that I needed to start this blog now. (This was in June of 2011). So, I found wordpress to be a great site to blog with and started my blog about my new life of hope.
Not to long ago now, after following these previous promptings, I received another prompting telling me that I could be doing more to help directly with people who may be struggling. I asked around the community about where I could volunteer in mental health related areas. I was directed to Madison Cares, which is a system of care for mental health in the Madison County and school district.
While searching for different places to volunteer, I was researching what I could do at the university I am attending. I learned about the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) and started looking into starting a chapter at my school. Just this past week, we received confirmation that we can start meeting as a group about mental wellness.
The Lord truly does bless us. He is in the details of our lives and He guides us. The Lord does not leave us alone. President Thomas S. Monson once said:
“We are never alone when we stand with our Father in Heaven.”